7 weeks and 4 days

well, on the bright side i've been getting less morning sickness, so yay! but on seven weeks i threw up again (second time so far). I had the OB orientation yesterday and got a lot of magazines and such, but i still can't wait for when i have my first appointment. my baby is moving now, but i so wish that i could feel it. and i wish i could show a little. but no, nothing.

six weeks. =]

well, i'm officially six weeks now. =] of course i got my first experience on christmas day of morning/afternoon sickness. it sucked, i was nauseous from when i woke up at nine in the morning until somewhere between two and four in the afternoon. luckily i didn't get any yesterday (mine and ryan's one year) or so far today. hopefully it stays that way. so this week my baby will start moving his or her arms and legs and the heart is already beating. just know that gives me this amazing, indescribable feeling. i can't wait for my first prenatal exam! and not to mention my first ultrasound, i wanna see my baby. probably by the end of this week, this will be my baby and it's absolutely adorable. 

a miracle has happened

i'm pregnant! i'm really pregnant! i'm so excited. the day before yesterday i just had a feeling that i was so i took a test yesterday morning and it was positive! i freaked out. the only symptoms i've had were really sore/large boobs, and a few days ago i noticed a little spot of blood on my underwear, which i suspected (rightfully) to be implantation bleeding. =]

i've already told mom, she's really excited. i'm going in for a blood test on monday so they can start setting everything (appointments) up once it comes back positive. 

everything is happening so fast. the day before yesterday i found out that we got this two bedroom apartment that we had been looking at, and yesterday, besides finding out that i'm pregnant, we found out that ryan got this web design job that he had been trying for. i'm so happy.

but i think i'm gunna drop out of the radiography program. i've been having second thoughts anyway, but for the baby's sake as well i think it'd be better. i think i'm gunna go into accounting. =]

i don't even know anymore

still no clue if i'm pregnant or not. that "period" never got heavy, and i've been done for a little bit now. it just stayed light. i've been taking equate brand tests but mostly at night, and they've all been negative. my boobs hurt really bad and have for the past week or so. so idk what's up. i'll keep trying in the mean time.

maybe it's not too late =]

so far this "period" is really weird. like i said, the first day i just spotted. and then yesterday i had very mild cramping and light bleeding. today there is no cramping at all and still very light bleeding, as in i only need liners. i put on a really thin pad so i wouldn't have to worry about it at work (plus it's longer so if i'm laying down i'm covered) and it's no where near filled. it's barely even touched, and even now it feels like the bleeding is slowing down. my bbt is still up, since yesterday i've been at 97.9, and like i've said normal for me is 96.6. and still no breaking out and what not, and i'm still feeling nauseous sometimes. yesterday i even dry heaved. so maybe i am pregnant. maybe not, but maybe. i have mixed feelings on whether i want to just give up on this month and hope for better luck next month or to hold onto that maybe i am pregnant. ryan thinks i'm pregnant, but he always does haha. but i guess like i said, i'll wait and see. i just hope this bleeding stops really soon. =]

maybe it's time to give up on this month

sooo i got up at like 6:30 this morning to go pee and when i got to the bathroom there was more blood. =[ but it still smells not like a menstrual period, so i have no clue. it has been light, and idk, the bleeding just seems really weird to me. like it's not really flowing, just every once in a while it'll just put out a little more than usual, and then nothing really. i just don't know what to think. my bbt was 97.9 today, which is .1 higher than what it was yesterday. as much as i'd like to believe i'm still possibly pregnant, i'm probably not since i am bleeding, and i guess i just need to get over it. better luck next month i suppose. this is kinda disappointing, i really thought that maybe this could be it. oh well, not like it's the first time. 

longest two weeks ever

so i started spotting today at around noon or so. kinda have mixed feelings about that. for one, i'm three days before my period should come, but also it's just very light spotting, and i don't usually spot before my period, it usually just comes. it's so light now that it's barely even spotting. but, it IS right on time for implantation bleeding, and sounds just like it, so i'm seriously hoping that that's what it is. ugh, got nauseous again today, after i ate waffle house this morning. it sucked lol, but hopefully it's for a good cause. =]

took a test this morning too...bfn. i'm sure you could've guessed though lol. this next time i think i'm gunna wait to see if i miss my period and then take it. i only have one left, sooo yeah. =] i'm still thinking positively though, and i'm really hoping this is it. 

also, i'm hiccuping a lot lately. i mean, i've always gotten hiccups every once in a while, but now i've been getting them a lot, like several times a day. maybe that's a sign too? who knows, i know, only time will tell, but i'm getting impatient.