Tuesday, October 20, 2009

I'm horrible at this whole blog thing haha

Well now to play catch up!

Sacred Heart did tests and decided to send me to Shands Hospital in Gainsville. The other week we went back there and Blake had a liver biopsy done. He doesn't have biliary atresia, so yay! :D He does have some form of liver disease, but I don't know what kind yet...don't know that the doctors know either. I've also started taking Blake to an actual pediatrician, Dr. Tartarilla. Amazing doctor! :D

Going to Sacred Heart only worsened the breastfeeding problems though. :( I almost had him onto the breast, but then when we went there the told me to quit nursing so they could tell exactly how much he was getting. Since then my supply has been dropping lower and lower. Now I can hardly even get him onto the breast with the shield even. This is a problem, since I now have an SNS and I kind of need him on the breast for it to work. I need him at the breast so he can stimulate it. Now when I express I can only get about 10 mL combined. That's horrible! I can't even pump anymore b/c it's too painful. So I've just been hand expressing everything. I just don't want to give up, I want so badly to be another success story with breast feeding. I got him to nurse with the breast shield for about 15 minutes today, so that was awesome. But I haven't been able to get him back on after that. I've been seeing an LC out in Pensacola. Her name is Susan and she's just the sweetest thing ever! I went yesterday and Blake weighed 6 lbs 6.6 oz (666 anyone?). He's finally starting to gain weight at a normal pace. Good thing, I mean he's 11 weeks and that's all he weighs. But just two weeks ago he was only 5 lbs 9 oz. So it's improvement. :)

I'm really wanting to make the switch to cloth diapers. I have two gpants and liners, thanks to Sabrina. :) So I can officially try it out now. Well, kinda. He doesn't really fit yet I don't think, but I think I'm going to try anyway. :D And I have my moby wrap now, and i just LOVE it. And I've gone back to work. It's okay, I just miss Blake tons during it. :( And I want a bigger diaper bag, since it seems that mine keeps shrinking, haha. Idk, I seem to always be wanting something.

For some reason I really feel like cooking. Its weird! Like I'm just having this huge urge to be a house wife all of a sudden lol. And I'm in a catch 22. Like, I want to move out and have space for everything, but at the same time I don't want my mom to miss out on any of Blake's growing up. Enh, not like I can afford to move out anyway, but still. Oh well, guess I have plenty of time to do it lol.