Fun News :)

Drum roll please! Nate and I have recently found out we're expecting! Totally an accident, but so excited nonetheless. According to my LMP, I'm due December 10, 2012. I actually announced it on facebook April 1st, so a lot of people were asking if this was an April fool's joke. Here to clarify further, it's definitely not! See for yourself:




This girl at work swears by the trick of predicting the gender by holding the cross necklace above my belly. Back and forth for a boy, circles for a girl, and supposedly it tells you all the kids you're having ever. It was so weird! I'll still take it with a grain of salt, but wow. It was completely still, and then by itself it started going back and forth (boy, for Blake). Then it started going in circles. So according to this test, this little one is going to be a GIRL! That would be so fun! I guess we'll see. Nate still says it's a boy, but only time will tell. Then, it stopped again for a few seconds (did in between the first two also) and started to go back and forth again. So apparently next I will have a boy. :)

So what I'm hoping will happen is that I have the baby over Christmas break and then I'll go back in January for maybe like two weeks? And then I graduate and I'll be done. :) And I'll probably work at Fud's up until I give birth and then just quit...and just save up enough to get me through until then. Then take my license test and then nurse! :D Hopefully everything will fall into place just like that.

Delays delays delays

I think those are about three words that really sum up my blog lately. :) And you all can thank nursing school for that! In fact, right now I should be studying for a test, but instead I felt that blogging was more important. I just miss it so much. :( I would say that I'm gunna try to update more often, but I don't want to lie to everyone because I don't really see it happening until AFTER school is over, or maybe even spring/summer break. I can't believe it's already February! Time is just flying, and I feel like I've spent these two months with my nose stuck in medical books. Then I realize it's because I have. :P

Speaking of school, it's going well. It's intense, and a ton of work, but it will be so worth it. :) I like it so far. I think next week or at least sometime this month we start our clinicals in the hospital. Eek! Nervous, but they want us to pass. Just got to tell myself that I can do this. I THINK I'm carrying A's in all my classes, so hopefully I can keep it that way.

I feel like I've been in a bit of a funk lately. Like, everything else is being neglected that's not school related. I haven't been doing too many chores, that's for sure. Nate's been great though. He's such a help, he's been doing laundry, dishes, cooking, and being the absolute best cheerleader for me. I'm so glad I found him, because this journey would be so much harder without him.

Lucie is actually Lucifer, I'm pretty sure. I just wanna know where my sweet kitten that I brought home went? Because she rarely resides here now. She's such a brat, and into everything that we don't want her in. Sometimes I find myself wondering what I got myself into, but at the same time I know that I would miss her if she was gone.

So it's almost the "in" season at work, thank God. I'm so tired of being broke 24/7! I want to be able to pay my bills AND have some money to buy myself something sometimes. For example, a new pair of eye glasses. I'm going to be serving only starting March 1, so almost there. I make so much more money doing that verses retail. I'm really hoping to save a whole lot this summer so that I can work much less during my last semester of nursing school.

After school is over, me and Nate will stay here for around a year, and then HOPEFULLY we're moving. :) We're thinking Oregon, but we're going to have to visit first. Everytime I tell people that I get these weird looks, but I'm so tired of living in Florida. I know for a fact I don't want to get stuck here like everyone in this town seems to, and this can finally be a way out. I'm excited, even if I seem crazy. This is what we want together. Those who mind don't matter, and those who matter don't mind.

Is it really almost Christmas???

It is! So hard to believe too. Holy cow. It pretty much just snuck up on me. I'm so not ready. I'm actually not doing Christmas this year. No money! I'm so tired of being broke. Hopefully I'll be a little less broke soon. I am moving in with Nate sometime before the end of the year, which is fast approaching. I'm so excited to be moved in 100%. I have minimal amounts of things here, but I still have to run back to Destin every once in a while to grab things. I'm just ready to have everything in one spot again. AND then I can move Lucie in!

Oh, I forgot, you don't know about Lucie. :D She's my adorable little kitten. She's the sweetest little thing! Such a little princess. She's been staying with my mom, just until I can get moved in here all the way. Mom says she's really going to miss her when she comes to live with me. I guess she could technically come live here now, but Nate's roommate that's moving out has a dog, which he says is fine with kitties, and I'm sure she is, but Lucie is scared of her. Plus this gives her some extra litter box training before she gets over here. Have I mentioned how sweet she is???




Anyway, nursing is going good. Pretty much made it through core classes! We start our clinicals in the nursing home on January 2nd. I'm a little nervous, but excited. :) I just hope that I don't forget everything I've learned in the time I'm off. I've made so many new friends from this program, I love them all. I've heard you start to hate each other next semester...I sure hope not.

Well, I can't really think of anything else new, but I just wanted to give you all a little update. Hopefully soonish I'll have some even more exciting news. :)

Nate and I at his work Christmas party. :)

Long time no blog?

So it feels like I haven't blogged in a good while. And then I realized, it's because I haven't. And sooo much has happened. I guess I'll start from the top and work my way to the most recent.

So I suppose the first thing I'll talk about, nursing! I ended up getting into the program, which started October 24th, and so far I love it. :) I feel like I'm doing really well in it. Granted it's still really early on, but I feel like my ability to absorb information has been heightened. I also feel like I'm more ready for this sort of program than what I was when I was in the radiography program. I don't know if I'm just more mature (well obviously I am), or if I'm just in a more stable environment. Back then I was struggling to live with Ryan, and I was so stressed all the time, about everything. I still get stressed, mainly about money, and granted I still sort of struggle, but not like I did back then. I feel like I'm better at studying too. Back then I was so bad at studying, just because I never had to before. I'm not sure exactly when I figured out how to study, but I'm so glad I did. In fact, right now I SHOULD be working on a project due in December, but I've been really feeling the urge to blog lately, and finally had some down time where I could make that happen, so I said why not. I also really ought to be doing at least one load of laundry, but you see how well that's going too. We start clinicals in January, which I can't decide if I'm more excited or nervous for. During clinicals we're going to be doing a lot of things that I've never done before, and let's just say, we'll be getting VERY well acquainted with the residents of the nursing home. But I keep telling myself that I've done clinicals before and have worked with people as a medical professional, and I did just fine, so I think once I get used to it I'll be okay.

What next? Me and Adam broke up. It was my decision, he's not happy about it at all, as I figured that he wouldn't be. I feel bad, because I still care about him, and I hope he's well, but I just wasn't feeling it anymore. Maybe it was the distance, it certainly didn't help, but either way I wanted out. I wish we could have just kept being friends when we broke up the second time, instead of getting back together. If I really wanted to, I suppose that I could've made it work, because we didn't have any major issues, but I refuse to settle with someone that I can just "make it work." I'm after a very specific feeling before I decide I'm staying in this for life.

Speaking of which, I think I've found that feeling. Me and Nate have officially started dating. I can't remember ever being so crazy over someone before. Even my mom can tell. She says I seem so much more happier after being with Nate. And I am! We see eye to eye on so many things, subjects that I often wondered if I would ever find a guy to agree with me on. I feel like someone created a person who was perfect for me, and I got so lucky as to find this person. I'm pretty positive that he's as crazy for me as I am for him too. Which makes things even better. Some people might say that we're moving a bit fast, but I'm a firm believer in when you know, you know. It'd only be too fast if either of us were uncomfortable, and I know for a fact neither of us are. I actually love it. :) I might be moving in with him soon, but it's still kind of up in the air. I sort of hope so, even though I despise moving. But there would be no stairs, rent would be $100 cheaper (could really use that right now), it'd be a little closer to school and a lot closer to dance (not to mention I would have to use gas to see him, a nice little perk), but a little farther from work. I haven't lived with a guy I was seeing since Ryan, so this will be way different than any of my other roommates. But I'm very confident that it will be multitudes better than living with Ryan. I'm excited over all, and hopefully things all work out. I am however a little nervous to bring it up to my roommate now that I'm moving out (if I do). I want to give her enough time to find a new roommate (if she wants one, which I think she does), and I don't want her to resent me once I move out. Not that I would probably see her too much after, but still, no need to make enemies.

Let's see, what else new? Nothing too significant I suppose besides all of that (quite a bit I would say). But okay, there's your update. :) Maybe I won't go so long between next time!

Dance Class

So I know that it's been a while, but I just thought that this deserves some blog-worthy attention. As many of you know, I take dance class. Well tuesday we started learning this new dance. It's absolutely beautiful and deep and meaningful...and about a mother losing her baby. The song is Held by Natalie Grant. As soon as I started to listen to the lyrics I had to actively work to fight back tears. I thought today (Thursday) (technically yesterday) would be easier, since I had some time to prepare myself. And it was, that is until my instructor started talking about the meaning of the song to him and how sometimes things happen to your child that are out of your control and you just have to let them go and fight it on their own. I was luckily able to fight back everything until after class when I got into my car. Then I kind of lost it a little. He kept telling us to tell our own story. He knows my story, vaguely. I'm not sure if he was meaning me or not, but I don't want to tell my own story; it doesn't have a happy ending. I so want to do this piece passionately, since it hits so close to home, but I'm not sure if I'll find the strength to do so without breaking down. Nothing in this world makes me break down like thinking about the moments where he slipped through my fingers, and it's not that fun trying to fight back tears everytime I go to class. I wish I was stronger; you would think that I would be past this by now, wouldn't I? It's been over a year, and for the most part I'm okay, but this song just brings up so much raw emotion, I'm not sure how to cope. I'm just hoping it gets easier in time, like most everything else does.

Great News!

So, a few weeks ago I took the entrance exam for the nursing program here (LPN, probably go on to get my RN in Georgia, but maybe not, unsure), and not even a week before the test day, I discovered I had been studying the wrong book. I was so upset! The book I was studying was for the RN program at another school, and I was borrowing it from my roommate. She thought they were the same tests, which I think would make sense. Nope, not one bit. I continued to study the book I had, hoping that it would have pretty much the same info. The test day comes up and oh my gosh, was that test hard. The science portion of the test was hardly anything like the one I had been studying. I memorized all of these formulas and values and such, and I didn't use any of them. There were however a lot of cell diagrams and questions about different reactions with chemicals that I had seen since the ninth and tenth grades. Ugh. My overall score after all the sections was a 143. I'm not sure how this ranks as far as doing well or not. The thing said that 100 was average, but people usually made between a 50 and a 150, and the highest possible was a 200. So I wasn't really sure how I ranked against everyone else, but considering that most people probably had the right book and I'm assuming everyone else studied for at least a couple months like I did (especially since it costs $40 to test), I really thought that I was out for this round. I was a little upset, but I was trying to not let it get to me. The last day for testing was September 14th (I tested September 2nd), and they told me that they would be setting up interviews after that. Now Emma, one of my friends who went through and graduated from this program, told me that they only interview people who did well enough on the test, and that they look at the highest scores first for interviews. So you can imagine how extremely surprised I was when I got a phone call on September 16th to schedule an interview. :) I'm sooo excited. I just hope that Emma's right about only interviewing those who did well enough on the test to get in. I'm not sure why they would change their application technique though, since I saw the stack of applications when I signed up for the test. It was HUGE. I so hope that I make the cut. It would be perfect since it would give me something to focus on while Adam's deployed. Which he doesn't deploy for a while still, but he'll be gone for about half of the program. So basically I just need everyone to cross their fingers for me that I have an awesome interview and that I make it in. :D

New Blog!

Hey everyone! I've FINALLY created my own beauty blog, where I can blog about my favorite products. :) I haven't really done so yet, since I just made it and now I have to go to work (booo), but soon I plan to. Follow me!

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