Tuesday, November 15, 2011

Long time no blog?

So it feels like I haven't blogged in a good while. And then I realized, it's because I haven't. And sooo much has happened. I guess I'll start from the top and work my way to the most recent.

So I suppose the first thing I'll talk about, nursing! I ended up getting into the program, which started October 24th, and so far I love it. :) I feel like I'm doing really well in it. Granted it's still really early on, but I feel like my ability to absorb information has been heightened. I also feel like I'm more ready for this sort of program than what I was when I was in the radiography program. I don't know if I'm just more mature (well obviously I am), or if I'm just in a more stable environment. Back then I was struggling to live with Ryan, and I was so stressed all the time, about everything. I still get stressed, mainly about money, and granted I still sort of struggle, but not like I did back then. I feel like I'm better at studying too. Back then I was so bad at studying, just because I never had to before. I'm not sure exactly when I figured out how to study, but I'm so glad I did. In fact, right now I SHOULD be working on a project due in December, but I've been really feeling the urge to blog lately, and finally had some down time where I could make that happen, so I said why not. I also really ought to be doing at least one load of laundry, but you see how well that's going too. We start clinicals in January, which I can't decide if I'm more excited or nervous for. During clinicals we're going to be doing a lot of things that I've never done before, and let's just say, we'll be getting VERY well acquainted with the residents of the nursing home. But I keep telling myself that I've done clinicals before and have worked with people as a medical professional, and I did just fine, so I think once I get used to it I'll be okay.

What next? Me and Adam broke up. It was my decision, he's not happy about it at all, as I figured that he wouldn't be. I feel bad, because I still care about him, and I hope he's well, but I just wasn't feeling it anymore. Maybe it was the distance, it certainly didn't help, but either way I wanted out. I wish we could have just kept being friends when we broke up the second time, instead of getting back together. If I really wanted to, I suppose that I could've made it work, because we didn't have any major issues, but I refuse to settle with someone that I can just "make it work." I'm after a very specific feeling before I decide I'm staying in this for life.

Speaking of which, I think I've found that feeling. Me and Nate have officially started dating. I can't remember ever being so crazy over someone before. Even my mom can tell. She says I seem so much more happier after being with Nate. And I am! We see eye to eye on so many things, subjects that I often wondered if I would ever find a guy to agree with me on. I feel like someone created a person who was perfect for me, and I got so lucky as to find this person. I'm pretty positive that he's as crazy for me as I am for him too. Which makes things even better. Some people might say that we're moving a bit fast, but I'm a firm believer in when you know, you know. It'd only be too fast if either of us were uncomfortable, and I know for a fact neither of us are. I actually love it. :) I might be moving in with him soon, but it's still kind of up in the air. I sort of hope so, even though I despise moving. But there would be no stairs, rent would be $100 cheaper (could really use that right now), it'd be a little closer to school and a lot closer to dance (not to mention I would have to use gas to see him, a nice little perk), but a little farther from work. I haven't lived with a guy I was seeing since Ryan, so this will be way different than any of my other roommates. But I'm very confident that it will be multitudes better than living with Ryan. I'm excited over all, and hopefully things all work out. I am however a little nervous to bring it up to my roommate now that I'm moving out (if I do). I want to give her enough time to find a new roommate (if she wants one, which I think she does), and I don't want her to resent me once I move out. Not that I would probably see her too much after, but still, no need to make enemies.

Let's see, what else new? Nothing too significant I suppose besides all of that (quite a bit I would say). But okay, there's your update. :) Maybe I won't go so long between next time!

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