Wednesday, August 17, 2011

The summer rush is ending

And since the summer rush is ending, hopefully I'll have more time to blog. :) Since I know I've been terrible about keeping up with it. Sorry!

So Blake's birthday I spent in Georgia with Adam, and we released a balloon for him. I tried my best to keep it together, mainly for Adam's sake, and I would say that I did a pretty good job. Not that I think Adam would think any less of me if I did lose it, especially for this reason, but I just hate crying in front of anyone, even family. Speaking of Adam, I miss him, a lot. I get to see him more than some people get to see their loves in the military, but even so it's really not that often. I know it'll be worse when he deploys, and I keep telling myself that, and it helps a little. I guess. But I know all of it is worth it because I love him and he loves me, and you can't really go wrong with that recipe. :)

I know this is the wrong time to decide to do this, since summer is on it's way out (don't get me wrong, isn't still miserable here in Florida), but I've decided to lose some weight. Not a lot, like maybe eight pounds, but still, I want to do this. All I did this summer was put on weight, not so fun. Well actually, it was fun, until the girth appeared lol. But I just want to look in shape again and I miss my muscle. I want to do zumba, but that costs money and that's just something I don't have right now. Plus I have horrible skin and that's been acting up lately and I hate it. People are absolutely shameless about pointing it out too...I usually tell them it's skin cancer and they shut up kinda fast ha. It's not, but still, I don't point out their flaws, why do they need to pick apart mine? Jerks. So basically I'm going to work really hard at fixing my body image to be something I'm happy with. I told Adam about such plans and he says to do what ever makes me happy, and I told him that I'm not happy about my body right now, and that's why I've been running/walking two miles a night. He told me he's happy that if it makes me unhappy, he's happy I'm doing something about it instead of just complaining and that he loves me for it. :) Did I mention I miss him?

That's about it. Me and Melissa are trying to get a place together, more in town, because I hate being so far away from everything. Wish us luck on that! But I'll try to write more later.

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